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If there must be trouble, let it be in my day, that my child may have peace. ~ Thomas Paine

Ryan has a date tomorrow night with someone who's cuter and smaller than I am.  My niece asked him to attend a "Daddy and Me" function with her.  He's kind of blown away with the enormity of it all, and she just thinks it's cool.  Like any first date, he's wondering what to wear and what to say, and she's wondering if he'll take her out for ice cream afterward.  I wonder when we lose that ability to just see a good thing for what it is, a good thing, into reading all sorts of other drama into it.

In honor of Memorial Day we'll be tree decorating again.  Last year we put a message in a bottle and released it into the ocean, and while it just couldn't have gone better, this little girl thinks it flopped.  Why?  Because her dad didn't get the letter.  This year, we have a simpler plan.  We'll put our messages in helium balloons and send them off to Heaven.  Brilliance.  Keeping it light.  I'm just not feeling it this year.  Not feeling what?  I'm not sure.   Maybe it's part numbness, part acceptance, part defense mechanism.  It's probably a good thing.

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#1  25 May 2005 - 18:54

 

Well, now he knows to spring for the ice cream. Forewarned is forewarned. Funny, I just momailed you and mentioned my kid and her joy in dressing up for spirit week at school with enthusiasm and no self consciousness. It is a gift of early childhood, I think.

And maybe instituting rituals absorbs our need to feel too deeply on the day we memorialize those we've loved so deeply. They take care of us in some way so we don't have to fall apart anew, but can honor and accept. And then again, you have other things on your mind, which I think is probably a very good thing indeed.

Leigh

#2  25 May 2005 - 19:22

 

Is Memorial Day this weekend?

You know, when I'm on my own I become oblivious to all holidays, birthdays, etc. I just don't have the calendar gene.

Best Memorial Day? Driving with msbhivin from San Francisco to Vancouver and back in 3 days ... though the drive back was kinda rough, especially since we made it just a couple of hours before I had to be in court, bright eyed and bushy tailed.

Canadian customs was fun too ... something about too much liquor and a stolen Bible.

Jheka

#3  25 May 2005 - 20:01

 

I would like to think that I have graduated to acceptance, but the truth is I'm just feeling bitter, and I tend to disguise my bitterness as an "I don't care" type attitude. In the end, it fools no one. lol

A Bible? Who steals a Bible?
I think you go straight to hell for that. Do not pass Go. :D

AmericanGirl

#4  25 May 2005 - 18:32

 

Nah, the Gideon's theory is that if you steal a Bible you must be needing to read it.

ButterflyLane

#5  26 May 2005 - 00:48

 

Hey, who needs a Bible more than someone who would steal one?

Jheka

#6  26 May 2005 - 05:46

 

Rocky Racoon needed a bible, remember?

Leigh

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